Everything is Evelyn II

Everything is Evelyn

Written June 2020

Your roses finally bloomed,

Their pink hues remind me of you.

I couldn't sleep last night,

I thought of you and held my stomach tight.

I thought about our time together,

Before we had to face the world and stormy weather.

I wish I'd talked to you more often,

Or held my belly more so your world would soften.

I miss every minute I had with you,

From growing inside me all the way to the NICU.

As I sit here in our yard so green,

I see you laughing as if in a dream.

I see a girl and her pup playing,

Amongst the tall trees gently swaying.

I see you reaching for the flowers,

I feel you lying on my chest for hours.

But I feel all these dreams begin to drift,

In my perfect world appears a rift.

Because I can't hold you or protect you,

I can't hit reset and start anew.

I feel sick from the loss of so many lives,

That will never happen and don't feel right.

All I can do is look at a rose,

So pink and perfect like your little nose.

And pray one day it might make sense,

Why God needed my sweet princess 💟